about me.

my name is gen and i don’t believe in capitalization.

i am a 16 year old girl who thought ‘year old’ was one whole word, like ‘yearold’. i emphasize, my mother language is spanish. double emphasis, i was born in puerto rico.

i am a very liberal, open minded and shy person, struggling with and only myself. i’m a teenager thus i am naturally paranoid. although, i don’t think i am truly paranoid, i believe my thoughts are too loud for me to process what is really happening. overthinking is lethal and is so me.

i’d say i’m just a kid who is struggling to be myself but the truth is i already am me. now, the struggle is how to embrace me. most people rant about people not letting them be themselves but i think that’s absurd. if you can’t be yourself somewhere or with someone then change it. there’s nothing more important than being and feeling yourself.

i am a junior in highschool, desperately waiting for the day i walk through the school gates and finally say ‘i am a freaking senior’. but i’m afraid after i say it everything will be the same as always. that’s one thing: i fear monotony more than anything in my entire life. more than airplanes, and that’s a lot.

i also fear not being able to pursue my goals. and i fear imperfection, too. which is why these days i’ve been kind of… weird. i’m not perfect, but everybody has a concept of perfect inside their heads. i want to be able to exceed a great amount of ‘idealistic perfect persons’ expectations; someday.

but i sure know what i like, and what i like is coffee and a good book that would leave me thinking and overthinking. i also enjoy painting, drawing, sketching, getting my hands dirty and colorful. i truly hope my future leads me to an art studio or somewhere where i can express all my frustrations into a canvas or a place where it just escapes my mind without causing any controversies.

i’m the kind of kid who is not busy enough to not have time to watch tv. but i do enjoy watching tv series… on the internet. kind of ironic, um, no. kind of ridiculous, actually. i also enjoy movies, and skateboarding. i like music, but who doesn’t? my taste in music is actually weird, i guess i’ll eventually make a playlist.

i believe in trust and i believe personality is key to making someone like you. i also believe that first impressions are important. i believe in equality but also fairness. i believe in many things and all of them combined make me who i am and who i’m trying to become.